kami terkena pulak..hehe

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Pekabar encik kambing?dah breakpes?teman baru baca email drp PM kita nih..hehe..terkezut le jugak teman tetiba nampak nama 'najib tun razak' dlm inbox teman...dgr kata semua bloggers dpt email tu..hehe..ntah le, tapi yg pasti..mmg PM kali nih sdg berusaha mencuba pelbagai cara utk mendekati rakyatnya...hmm, bagus tu..senang nak contact kalu nak suggest atau complain apa2...en kambing dpt tak email tu?aiseh....takde email lagi ye...nanti teman buatkan ye....mmbek@gmail.com...hehe...gile hebat kalu kambing pun dpt email drp PM ni...bukan setakat 'berjiwa rakyat' dah tu..dah jadi 'berjiwa haiwan ternakan' sekali...hehehe....

hari ni teman nak cerita satu lagi kisah pengalaman teman kat posting psychiatry nih...cerita ni berkisarkan seorg pesakit teman yg menghidapi 'bipolar mood disorder'...

bipolar mood nih maksudnya sesuatu penyakit mental yg mana seseorg pesakit tu akan mengalami kitaran extremes of mood yg berulang2...adakalanya pesakit tu akan rasa sedihhhh sgt...sampai mengurungkan diri, taknak makan, tak boleh tidur..sampai ada yg rasa mcm nak bunuh diri...

tetapi ada masa pulak, pesakit tu rasa mcm happy sgt, ckp tak berhenti2...energetic melampau, tak boleh duduk diam, tak payah tidur langsung etc...

hehe..teman tau, mesti yg pikir..eh, kadang2 aku pun mcm tu....sat sedih...sat happy...even teman pun mcm tu, biasa lah manusia kan....ups n downs in life...tapi sesuatu mood atau perlakuan tu akan dikategorikan sbg penyakit apabila ia mengganggu fungsi seseorg di dlm kehidupannya atau di dlm komuniti....maksudnya apabila seseorg tu sedih sgt sampai tak mampu nak bekerja atau nak mengendalikan tugas sbg seorg ibu contohnya...atau, berasa terlalu happy sampai melompat2 di luar rumah dan mengganggu jiran tetangga...atau energetic sgt sampai shopping beribu2 ringgit dlm satu masa membeli brg2 yg bukan keperluannya...that's when these people need help....kalau ada yg tak paham nanti email teman ye...

so, patient teman yg sorang ni telah dimasukkan dlm wad sbb mak dia komplen yg dia nih dah tak tido malam selama 4 mlm berturut2, dok buat lawak yg dia sendiri ja dok gelak tak abih2...dan suka bawak kereta laju2 sampai membahayakan diri dan org lain di jln raya...in fact, kekadang org yg mengalami bipolar dlm manic phase ni ada 'grandiosity' sikit (percaya yg dirinya hebat), mcm patient teman hari tu, dia percaya yg dia ni ada superpowers boleh tangkap hantu, syaitan iblis dan mcm2 lagi...

teman ingat lagi the first time teman jumpa dia...dia tengah ajuk cleaner dlm wad tu mop lantai...cleaner tu mop kiri...dia pun buat2 mop sebelah kiri..sampai cleaner tu pun naik fed up..bila dia marah pesakit teman tu suruh balik ke katil, patient teman tu pegi kacau pulak patient lain- sorang pakcik nyanyuk yg garang nak mampus...dapat satu penumbuk kat muka patient teman tu..aduhai...(pakcik tu selamba je sambung tido lepas membelasah patient teman tu)

bila specialist teman dtg, baru kitorg berjaya pujuk dia duduk dkt katil...

specialist teman tanya dia...

Specialist: kenapa raju (bukan nama sebenar) tak tidur sampai 4 malam?raju buat apa?

Raju: saya sibuk la Dr, sejak akhir2 ni...

Specialist: oh ye ke..sibuk buat apa tu....?

Raju: sibuk nak masuk satu contest ni...waaa, dr..kalau saya menang, saya akan dpt USD 200K!!huiyooo...saya sudah boleh bukak saya punya syarikat computer sendiri..dan saya boleh jadi CEO utk company tu!! (this can be part of 'grandiosity' yg teman cerita tadi tu)

Specialist: ooo...jadi, sbb nak menang contest ni yg raju sampai tak makan, tak tido, tak mandi nih?

Raju: Aiyooo Dr.... contest itu sgt susah (sambil menggeleng2 kepala)....international level punya Dr tau ka....kena buat research pagi sampai malam...kalau tak buat betul2..mcmmana mau menang?

Specialist: i see....

So, lepas Dr2 semua berbincang, kitaorg pun start la ubat utk tone down sikit dia punya grandiosity tu dan some mood stabilizer supaya dia calm down skit dan tak mengganggu staff dan pesakit2 lain...

Seminggu selepas tu, kami berjumpa lagi dgn raju...dari jauh kelihatan raju tersengih2 melambai2 ke arah kami...excited benor rupanya...

Specialist: hello raju...waa...nampak sgt gembira hari ni...?

Raju: waa...mesti la Dr...saya sudah mau menang itu contest laa...tadi bapak saya telefon, dia kata saya sikiiiiit lagi mau menang itu contest.....!!

Teman telan air liur...hehe...skrg nih teman dah sensitif bab2 telefon ni...karang keluar cerita telepathy plak...hehehhehehhehehehehheheheh..tak boleh nak percaya bulat2 dah apa yg patient teman bagitau nih....

Raju sambung lagi: waaaa, kalau menang itu USD 200K ah, saya mmg terus mau bukak company sendiri...mau panggil ramai org jadi saya punya staff tau...saya mau jadi Boss...bawak kereta besar....

Specialist teman tak comment byk2...she just smiled and nodded....and we continued our ward rounds tengok patient lain plak...

Lebih kurang setengah jam lepas habis ward round,i got this call from my specialist....hehehhe...apparently, lepas dah abis ward round, she went back to her room...

and she was definitely not prepared for the shock that jolted her senses when she opened her copy of 'the star' that day.....hehhehehhehehhe....

This was what's written on Page 5 of The Star that day....

"The 10 shortlisted participants in the running for USD200K in a competition held by YTL Group"

1- xxx
2- xxx
3- xxx
4- xxx
5- xxx
6- xxx
7- xxx
8- xxx
9- xxx
10- Raju a/l Ramasamay

Hahahahahahahahhahahah!!!......she couldnt believe her eyes!

Yep, u got it right!!My patient is really one of the 10 malaysians yg telah dishortlisted for the grand prize of USD200K!!!!!

Hahahahah!!Tu dia la sarah....orang cerita tak nak percaya!!!grandiosity lah..apa lah....hahaha!!pening teman tak tau yg mana satu nak percaya nih...hehe...tapi...hebat betul patient teman yg sorang ni kan???kita kalu masuk competition ni pun tak tentu boleh ter'short listed'...200 ribu USD plak tuh....teman mmg salute habis la!!!

i wish u all the best for the next stage of competition and may u really win and become orang kaya baru, raju!!! :))))

Till we meet again with more stories,
gong xi fa chai!

Wasallam.

aku terkena lagi...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hi encik kambing, rajin le plak teman dtg menengok ye..
bukan apa...kesian kat kamu...duduk sorang2 dlm blog ni...nanti teman cari kan bini ye...alolololo...

Sekarang ni sebenarnya teman tgh buat rotation psychiatry...
dah masuk bulan kedua sebenarnya..
dah biasa jugak la dgn persekitaran psychiatry dan patient2 nya...
mmg byk cerita dlm kepala teman ni..
dan mmg ramai jugak yg mintak teman tuliskan cerita- cerita tu..
tapi teman tak sampai hati..takut patient2 teman jadi bahan ketawa plak...
tak syok la kalu camtu kan?

the first time i entered the psychiatric ward (after years of leaving medical school)..rasa seram tu mmg ada sikit...tapi lama kelamaan..teman rasa mcm boleh relate aje dgn patient2 ni..
mungkin sbb ramainya lebih kurang sebaya dgn teman (peak incidence of schizophrenia is between 20-30 years old....that's our age!!)
and they used to have a perfectly normal life before they fell ill...
just like any of us..
ada yg pernah kerja jadi kerani, supermarket promoter,cikgu, lawyer..yg jadi dr pun ada..
ada yg dah berumah tangga..ada yg dah punya anak pun...
tapi bila ada sesuatu yg menyebabkan stress yg melampau..
sampai fikiran pun dah tak boleh nak cope..
they snap...and that's usually how they fall sick

and we will never know..bila Allah hendak menguji kita kan..?
and whether we would be strong enough to face it...
so, that's why..teman rasa kita tak patut ada pandangan serong pada mereka ni...
coz we will never know...if Allah decides that it's gonna be our turn pulak tomorrow kan?...

hmm...hari ni teman ada satu kisah menarik..
hehe..mmg cerita2 ni berkisarkan tentang patient2 teman...tapi yg kena gelaknya teman...bukan deme...hehhehehe

Alkisahnya, teman ada la sorang patient kat dlm ward ni..
dia di'diagnose' dgn penyakit schizophrenia..

Schizophrenia ni sejenis penyakit mental, di mana seseorang tu akan percaya yg bukan2 (contohnya spt, percaya bahawa dia adalah nabi, atau ada org nak bunuh dia, atau alien masukkan cip dlm kepala dia dan mcm2 lagi)...ada jugak di kalangan mereka yg boleh mendengar suara2...tu yg kadang2 kita nampak mereka bercakap seorg diri...

Patient ni dah lama betul le duduk dlm wad...sejak bulan 9 hari tu...masa dia masuk wad, teruk betul keadaannya..dia ingat mak ayahnya nak bunuh dia...pening mak ayahnya bawak dia berubat sana sini..bomoh tu..bomoh ni...akhirnya sampai ke hukm atas nasihat kawan2..tapi setelah diberi rawatan..mmg keadaan pesakit teman ni beransur elok...dia dah mula terima kembali mak ayahnya...kalau mak dia dtg, dia mau bersembang...kalau mak dia bawak makanan pun, dia dah tak was was nak makan...lega jugak la teman...misi2 pun lega sbb tak teruk sgt nak jaga...

Yg nak dijadikan ceritanya, satu hari ni masa teman buat ward round, teman nampak dia tgh kemas2 pakaian nak bawak masuk dlm beg....teman tanya dia....

Teman: siti (bukan nama sebenar) kemas baju nak buat apa tu?

Siti: Oh, saya nak balik la dr, saya rasa dah sihat la sekarang...saya nak duduk kat rumah...lagi pun mak saya kata, dia nak jaga saya elok2...

Teman: Oh...ye ke...siti nak balik??mmm...siti ada tak dgr apa2 suara lagi dkt telinga?

Siti: Dah takde dr (sambil tersenyum)

Teman: Haa, bagus la tu...nanti saya bincang dgn Dr. Nik (my specialist)...kalau dia bagi siti balik, nanti saya bagitau ye...?

Siti: Okay dr!

Teman: Mmm, kalau siti boleh balik..siti nak balik mcmmana?

Siti: Balik dengan mak..semalam mak saya telefon, dia kata dia nak dtg ambik saya...

Teman: Ooo..okay lah kalau mcm tu..nanti saya bincang n bagitau siti ye...?

Jadiknya, teman pun bincang le dgn specialist teman, and specialist teman pun setuju la nak bagi siti ni balik memandangkan keadaannya yg mmg dah beransur pulih sejak admissionnya dulu...
So, teman pun sediakan dokumen2...and bagitau le siti n staff nurses kata dia dah boleh balik...happynya siti waktu tu...and teman pun berharap moga keadaannya semakin baik n tak perlu masuk ke wad lagi....

Esoknya, bila teman dtg wad, teman ingat dah kurang 1 patient la..tetiba teman nampak nama siti ni masih ada kat board lagi...teman terus pergi ke katilnya...dalam keadaan confuse......

Teman: Eh siti....kata nak balik semalam???

Siti: Ha'ah...mmg nak balik, tapi mak siti tak dtg la dr...

Teman: Lah...pulak...??hari tu kata mak siti yg telefon kata nak ambik siti kan??

Siti: Ha'ah..entah la dr...tak datang pun....

Mata teman tercari2 handphonenya....di atas meja...di atas katil...tapi tak nampak pun....bila teman pikir2 balik,teman tak pernah le pulak nampak dia cakap guna handphone...in fact, kalau dia nak cakap dgn mak dia pun, dia akan suruh misi yg dialkan telefon hospital....

Teman telan air liur..............

Teman: Errr...hari tu mak siti telefon siti guna telefon mana ye??

Siti: Oh...saya memang boleh bercakap dgn mak saya tanpa guna telefon dr....kitorang boleh bercakap guna telepathic jarak jauh........Dr tak tau ke????

Terlopong teman.........................

Terasa waktu bergerak dgn sgt perlahan....dan nafasku terhenti buat seketika...........

Tik tok...tik tok..

Adeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....tepuk dahi teman dibuatnya....

Tertipu rupanya aku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tak sihat lagi patient teman ni rupanya!!...boleh bercakap jarak jauh tak payah guna talipon....!!adeh...adeh....apa lah nasib ku...tertipu dgn pesakit ku sendiri yg langsung tidak berniat utk menipu diriku...........hua hua hua!!terus teman rasa pening dan terpaksa meng'excuse'kan diri...mengubat hatiku yg gerhana......huahuahuahua....

bila teman cerita kat specialist teman, dia pun tergelak...'Welcome to psychiatry' katanya....'it takes a bit of experience utk detect benda2 mcm ni sbnrnya..it's okay..u will learn...' huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!tipah tertipu bang!!tipah tertipu!!

so dipendekkan cerita, sampai sekarang le cik siti tu kat dalam wad ye...masih kena ambik ubat...moga2 dia cepat sembuh dan boleh pulang ke rumah, dan belajar menggunakan public phone!

heheheheh....

esok teman cerita lagi ye...

teman nak pegi menenangkan hati yg luka...

till we meet again then,
wasallam :)

someone special :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hehe..mcm dah nak sebulan sekali boleh sempat nak update blog nih..hmm..sorry ye en kambing...ada aje benda yg nak dibuatnya...tak sempat langsung teman..hari keroje toksah cakap la..masalahnya hjg minggu pun lebih kurang aje akhir2 ni..

Hmm, hari ni teman nak cerita pasal seseorang istimewa dlm hidup teman...ehem, siapa le agaknya..boyfren teman??kekasih sehidup semati??oh tidakk...yg ni lagi istimewa, sbb beliau adalah salah seorg yg telah mencorakkan identiti teman sewaktu kecil..dan prinsip2 hidupnya masih teman pegang hingga ke hari ni...

Lama betul teman tak jumpa insan istimewa ni...ada juga sekali sekala teringat..tapi tak tahu mcmmana nak contact..hingga lah baru2 ni, kami ditemukan oleh Allah dlm keadaan yg tidak disangka2 :)

Waktu tu teman berada di surau stesen bas di butterworth..teman baru sampai dari kl, tgh tunggu sumi san dtg ambik...so teman pegi surau dulu utk solat..semasa teman nak pakai telekung tu, teman ternampak seorang makcik ni...beliau sedang duduk dkt tepi dinding...teman tak nampak mukanya, tapi dari segi perwatakan, betul2 la mcm makcik2 mana2 yg kita selalu jumpa...simple dark blue polka dots blouse and pants with black tudung...when i was about to turn away, i saw her reaching for her bag...and she took out..........a book...

hmm, teman pasti masa tu, ia bukan surah yaasin ke ma'thurat ke..sbb bukunya agak tebal...rupanya agak usang, mcm dah dibaca byk kali..even kulit bukunya mcm dah nak terlerai...mungkin sbb jarang melihat seorang makcik membaca buku di stesen bas, teman mcm nak tau sgt buku apa yg makcik ni baca...so i went nearer (hehe...penyibuk betul laa)...and i saw..........glimpse of english words!

and not just english words...they were classical english words....words like, 'thee'...'thou'...'alas'

wow, i mean, how often do you see the older generation reading at a bus station? newspapers yes, but books...??and how often do you see a makcik carrying a book around..to read during her free time...not often i dare say...and how about a makcik reading classical english...hmm, very rare indeed!

i was so intrigued with this makcik, i wanted to know her background..her profession..i wanted to know who she was and was so tempted to go up and talk to her...but then, sumi san was coming in a while and i had to perform my solah...so i cancelled my niat..

bila teman dah abis sembahyang, makcik tu dah keluar pun dari surau..i felt quite dissapointed...takde rezeki nampaknya...hmm, takepelah....pelan2 teman lipat telekung...

i then thought to myself...

"i've never even completed reading ONE classical english book, half of the time i would just abandon the book (since i could not make sense out of the sentences and kept on confusing between thou and thee hehe) and pick up a 'shopaholic' book instead!haha...none of my friends enjoy classical english, even my mom does not have a single classical english book at home...the only person i could imagine carrying a classical english book around is my former primary school teacher- cikgu zabidah!"

i stopped there.

well, i did not see her face...

but.....it could have been her right?

it could have been anybody..yes..but then again...it could have been my sweet sweet teacher..

i hastily folded my telekung, shoved it into my handbag and rushed out of the surau..

my aim was only one- to look for a lady in dark blue polka dots blouse...i scanned around...worried that she might have taken the bus..then i suddenly saw a glimpse of that blouse i was talking about..

Pelan2 teman berjalan ke arahnya..beliau masih tengah membaca..kepalanya tunduk..khusyu' betul...teman bagi salam..." Assalamualaikum..."

She lifted her head up...and there it was...that familiar face that i saw every single day during my primary six..that face that had taught me so lovingly about the cold hard facts about life...and had repeatedly pointed out my mistakes when i was wrong...

"Cikgu zabidah??" i asked her

"Ya saya.."

"Saya anak murid cikgu masa dekat sekolah Convent dulu...cikgu kenal saya tak lagi..?"

She looked at me intently.."Lama betul dah tu...mungkin muka pun dah berubah kot...nama sapa ye?"

"Sarah...sarah nur alya...."

"Ooo, sarah yang doktor tu kaa"

I smiled and nodded...oh, we had a very interesting conversation after that...it was so SO nice to finally meet and be able to thank your teacher properly u know, especially the ones who have taught u the basic stuffs that u need to know in your life...

Apparently, she knew that i was based in kulim for a while..and i was so shocked when she was still able to name both my brothers, raqib and hakim (because she taught them as well for tuition) and that was like years ago okay...

You see, Cikgu Zabidah was a very very dedicated teacher. She taught with her soul...she was very sincere...and she always reminded her students to 'buat kerja sepenuh hati'..I'm sure u had some teachers like this as well, the ones u will never forget till the end of ur life and will be forever indebted to them...

Take this as an example of how dedicated she was: I've always had problems with essay writing...both malay and english...i tend to terpesong out of the tajuk...hehehe...even masa sekolah menengah, sir said had problems with me: he said that i like to beat the around the bush.."tak pegi ke arah tujuan sebenaq," kata sir said to me once..

So, since i had this problem, cikgu zabidah was very concerned..she then gave me an essay title every friday, of which i had to complete the essay during the weekend and pass it to her on monday. This remedial action was for me alone as my friends did not have problems with essay writing...for weeks, she marked my paper and encouraged me to write better..pointing out my mistakes..seeing me during recess...fuh...it was hard work for both of us :) but Alhamdulillah...we did it..i scored an A for my malay essay..and i tell u...it was worth it :)

Tengah kami dok bersembang tu, tetiba cikgu zabidah introduced me to a lady who was sitting beside her...

"Ini sepupu cikgu...sarah ni, anak murid saya..ingat tak dulu pernah sekali, saya cerita kat awak..ada sorang murid ni tanya saya..cikgu, cikgu kenapa kalau org tu puasa waktu bulan ramadhan..lepas tu kalau dia (lengkapkan sendiri hehe) dgn suami...dia kena ganti puasa 2 bulan??hehehhe...saya cakap kat dia...sarah tunggu dulu, bila sarah dah kahwin nanti sarah tau le...haaa, ini lah anak murid saya tu...!!"

Sepupu cikgu tu gelak berdekah2...muka teman dah merah padam..hahaha...of all the things that i asked her, this was the one that she remembered most!!apparently, teman masa tu baru abis kelas agama, pastu teman masuk kelas cikgu zabidah dgn muka konpius..and teman terus tanya dia soalan tu...hahahahah....kelakau betul...

When it was time to depart, she gave me a great hug, kissed my cheek and asked me to keep in touch...I asked her then, "Buku apa yang cikgu baca tadi??"

"Yang ni??oh, tafsir quran...memang merata cikgu bawak tafsir ni..."

I nodded...that's exactly the cikgu zabidah that i know..well i pray only the best for her...for all the ilmu and great deeds that she's done in this life- may Allah grant her with Jannah in the hereafter...

Something to ponder for the day- Hebat kan, bila org boleh kenal kita..semata2 dgn character kita..walaupun tak tengok muka kita... :)

For penutup, I shall leave you with a photo of cikgu zabidah n her cousin yg teman sempat snap masa kat stesen bas tu..

Till we meet again then,

Wasallam.

Cikgu Zabidah yang di sebelah kanan, bertudung hitam..di samping sepupunya..Moga Allah memberkati segala usaha cikgu...dan semoga cikgu diletakkan di antara para muqarrabin di sisiNya selalu...insyaAllah :)